Wedding Preparations...gone bad

Wedding invites are out!! The turned out perfectly. My mom found this great website so instead of us making them all by hand (not enough time to do so), we ordered them. Black and hot pink!! I love them :) Good job mom!
We found a minister, thank God!! Tony's dad's friend will be performing out ceremony. We go visit him about once a month, maybe every other month down in Huntington Beach (our favorite place) and just hang out in Hula Circle. He is a great guy and I'm excited he will be part of our wedding.
Yesterday Tony and I went over to my mom's house to help cut corks for the table assignment holders. Oh my did this not turn out well at all!! When we first arrived, mom tells us she has cut herself a fews times and that we should be careful. So about ten minutes goes by and then everyone started cutting themselves. I'm not just talking about little paper cuts, I'm talking like full on huge cuts from the razor blades. Tony first cuts himself and is bleeding all over the cork he was cutting. Aarika runs to get bandaids...in the meantime while he is cleaning his fingers off. BAM!! I started cursing and freakin out because I cut myself. Not sure exactly how it happened, but it was bad. Tony got his finger situated, well with bandaids. I'm over at the sink covering the sink with blood. It was crazy, it wouldn't stop bleeding. I finally get bandaids on it, and they aren't even helping. The blood is just going straight through. So Tony decides we should put Peroxide on the cuts to clean them out, and then Neosporin and more bandaids. So we go to the bathroom and do this...but of course mine isn't getting better. The blood is still soaking through the bandaids. So mom goes to get gauze and we tape gauze around my finger. Oh my, this was so much work just to try to get the bleeding to stop. Later we get home and low and behold, my finger is still bleeding. Tony's finger stopped bleeding. Well all night my finger is taped up, and it is kind of annoying to do things when you can't bend it or really bump it on anything without pain.
This morning was a task blow drying my hair, but no worries I did it...I didn't suck my hair in a ponytail :) After I got ready for the day, I decided to take the bandaid off, and WOW so not a good idea!! My finger was gushing blood!! Tony had to hang up the phone with his mom and rushed over to the sink, trying to help me figure out what to do. He gets the gauze, tape and Neosporin out and plays doctor to me. Thanks baby!! ;) All day I have had this huge white thing on my finger, I can't bend it, I can't do anything with it. Sitting here typing is kind of a chore, but I just wanted to share the story. I am hoping tomorrow it heals a little, but at this point the skin is not even close to coming back together.
Oh and the worst part is my mom is freakin me out saying I need stitches. Stitches?!?!?! No way in hell am I getting stitches. I have never had them and I hope I never get them, let alone on my tiny little pinky finger. I mean come on that would be pretty painful since there isn't much skin to work with on a finger. Hopefully one of the nurses at work tomorrow can help me figure something out to help it heal quickly.
All in all wedding preparations are going good, this was just a little bump in the road and a good story to tell you all. :)

This Is Your Life...

Today on my way home from work, I was flipping through my ipod and decided to listen to Switchfoot, This Is Your Life. I haven't listened to them in years!! As soon as I put the album on, I kinda of felt at peace, like all my worries went away. It reminded me of when I was younger, maybe high school age, and everything was simpler. Listening to this song made me think, it made me think about my life, it made me think about what I am doing with my life and if it is really what I want to do. Is sitting in a office building, behind a desk, working as a Human Resource Manager what I really want to do? Is it really who I want to be?? I would have to say NO!! I am not happy doing this. I do not wake up in the morning and get excited to go to work. I actually wake up as late as possible to make it to work by 8:30am...sometimes I look very presentable, other times I do not. I guess I just do not care anymore. I am getting more and more careless about how things go at work. I do not care for it at all anymore. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate what my dad and mom have done for me while I have worked there the last 9 years. They have been amazing bosses, but since I am only 26 I feel I need to move on to something I really enjoy. This is my life, am I who I want to be? I want to have a career that I enjoy. Yes, it may make me less money than I make now, but at least I will not dread waking up 5 days a week. I will thoroughly enjoy what I do and in the end that will make me a happier person. I want to be a photographer. I want to capture those moments that people sometimes miss, that people take for granted. I want to be there to tell the story of someone's life, their childrens lives, their love life, their families lives. I want to be the one who is able to capture those moments and make them last a lifetime. I don't want to wake up in 20 years and regret that I didn't make the best of my life, that I didn't follow my goals, my dreams.

To be honest, I want to be a mom and a wife. I want to have a children. I want to be a part of their lives. I want to see their first steps, hear their first words, watching them grow up. I want to be the mom that helps out in their classroom, that drives on field trips, that brings cupcakes to school for their birthdays. I want to be a loving wife to Tony. I want to take care of him, have dinner ready when he gets home from work, be there to enjoy his company, take care of the house, the bills, the kids...life. This is who I want to be.

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

And you had everything to lose

Bridal Shower

My wedding shower was yesterday, May 22nd, at my mom's house. It was so much fun!! Angela, sister n law, made the cutest invites and the centerpieces. Mom did the food, the games, the decorations, the cake(well she bought the cake). Aarika, Kelley, Lauren and Kimberly helped with the organizing the games.
This party was awesome. Tony dropped me off and had to come inside real quick to make the Pink Martini's that momma couldnt figure out. Well, he made them like super strong. Kimberly gave me a pink white glass with a blinged out 'L' and I had 4 of those full of the Pink Martini's....did I say 4!! Ok remember I am a light-weight drinker, so 4 full glasses is a lot. But man were they delicious. I think I had a drink in my hand the entire party. Anyways, at first we played a guess the famous bride/groom or wedding movie game...this kind of game is a typical thing mom would plan :) next we ate yummy taco salad with rolls. oh there was spinach/artichoke dip and regular spinach dip around...so YUMMY!!! after lunch we played a game where you dress someone up in toilet paper and ribbons to look like a beautiful bride. I was the judge so I didnt have to be dressed up, but it was hilarious watching everyone try to figure out what style would work best and how to make their 'model' look the best. First place was Grandma and second place was Aunt Melissa. Then we went inside and mom put a video on. It was Aarika interviewing Tony about our relationship. She asked him questions, then put it on pause to see if my response would be the same as his. It was fun!! I have to admit I didnt get all the answers the same as Tony, but Id say a majority of them :)

Next of course was PRESENTS!!! We got lots of great gifts plus some sexy lingerie ;) Oh and the desert was confetti cake!! Omg Susie's Cakes in Calabasas has the most delicious cake ever! It is so moist and oh so good!!

Thank you to all of you that shared this day with me.

My sisters are growing up....

Next week Aarika will be turning 19. OMG!!! 19!!! Lauren turned 18 in March and Kelley will be 21 in September (legally allowed to buy alcohol, OMG!!!). Now there is NO more kids in the family...we are all adults now. I can vividly remember Kelley, Aarika and Lauren playing in the backyard when they were probably 3 and 4 years old. They were my chunky, innocent, sweet sisters. Not anymore...they are adults now and definately not innocent, growing up into beautiful women.

Kelley, the oldest of the younger sisters, is applying to some pretty prestigious colleges: UCLA and Berkley. WOW!! I know I would never have even thought twice about applying to those schools. She is quite a smarty pants, know it all kinda girl. She is the sister that gives me advice, thinking she knows more about life than I do :D I always remind her I am 7 years older than her, I think I have a bit more experience. That is just who she is and I love her for it.

Aarika, the middle of the younger sisters, is graduating from high school this year. I cannot believe it!! She has matured so much over the years thank God, because I remember she would drive me crazy always wanting to hang out with me and my friends. But being the meanie I was, I always said no or I would say yes, but she would have to keep her mouth shut LOL Anyways, she is so extremely talented in fashion and makeup. I love her sense of fashion, I always ask her to help me improve my wardrobe and give me tips on dressing cuter :D She always looks cute, even when she isnt really matching LOL

Lauren, the baby/dad's favorite (well maybe not anymore lol, just kidding), is graduating from high school this year too. Little Laur...growing up we used to make Lauren go ask dad if we could have pizza for dinner or donuts for breakfast. She was the cute little one that dad always always said yes too. So of course we had to use her. Dad would respond 'Anything for you baby, aww.' And the he would just smile at us and laugh. He isnt stupid, he knew what we were doing, but hey it worked for our benefit :D Not so little anymore, she is still dad's little girl...the baby of our clan.

I didnt live with Kelley and Lauren, so I wasnt able to watch them grow up on a daily basis. I feel like I wasnt there for them, I wasnt that bigger sister that they needed. I hate myself for that, it breaks my heart that I dont know them as well as I know Aarika. I didnt try harder to be around, I was young and wanted to be with friends more than my younger sisters. I hope you two know that I love you so much and I will always be here for you.

Kelley, Aarika and Lauren you three have grown into beautiful young women. You each have a special place in my heart. It is fun for me to watch you grow. To look back at old pictures and compare them to know....oh my how each of you has matured in your looks and personalities. I love you all so much!!

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Winter 2009

My new blog...

So this used to be my wedding blog, but I was awful at updating it. Anyways, I want to make a blog now about mine and Tony's adventures of preparing for our wedding, having our wedding, and then sharing our lives together. We are getting married July 17, 2010 which is just 2 months away!!!
Stay tuned :D