This Is Your Life...

Today on my way home from work, I was flipping through my ipod and decided to listen to Switchfoot, This Is Your Life. I haven't listened to them in years!! As soon as I put the album on, I kinda of felt at peace, like all my worries went away. It reminded me of when I was younger, maybe high school age, and everything was simpler. Listening to this song made me think, it made me think about my life, it made me think about what I am doing with my life and if it is really what I want to do. Is sitting in a office building, behind a desk, working as a Human Resource Manager what I really want to do? Is it really who I want to be?? I would have to say NO!! I am not happy doing this. I do not wake up in the morning and get excited to go to work. I actually wake up as late as possible to make it to work by 8:30am...sometimes I look very presentable, other times I do not. I guess I just do not care anymore. I am getting more and more careless about how things go at work. I do not care for it at all anymore. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate what my dad and mom have done for me while I have worked there the last 9 years. They have been amazing bosses, but since I am only 26 I feel I need to move on to something I really enjoy. This is my life, am I who I want to be? I want to have a career that I enjoy. Yes, it may make me less money than I make now, but at least I will not dread waking up 5 days a week. I will thoroughly enjoy what I do and in the end that will make me a happier person. I want to be a photographer. I want to capture those moments that people sometimes miss, that people take for granted. I want to be there to tell the story of someone's life, their childrens lives, their love life, their families lives. I want to be the one who is able to capture those moments and make them last a lifetime. I don't want to wake up in 20 years and regret that I didn't make the best of my life, that I didn't follow my goals, my dreams.

To be honest, I want to be a mom and a wife. I want to have a children. I want to be a part of their lives. I want to see their first steps, hear their first words, watching them grow up. I want to be the mom that helps out in their classroom, that drives on field trips, that brings cupcakes to school for their birthdays. I want to be a loving wife to Tony. I want to take care of him, have dinner ready when he gets home from work, be there to enjoy his company, take care of the house, the bills, the kids...life. This is who I want to be.

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

And you had everything to lose